light and dark

As my father says, you always need confidence.  I've found that is the most helpful way to start believing in yourself.  Yes, I am paranoid and get extremely nervous, but I can tell you that the darkest days that I have ever known are ebbing.  I am terrified those days will return, but it's almost a year that I have felt more alive.  Family issues still plague me.  I still have fear of other people.  It is much less.  I just wanted to say that when I had no hope, and years I could not cope, at last there was a light at the end of the tunnel.