Things have been going really well for my partner and me. We had a great Christmas and New Year, the best we have had in our 4 year relationship. He has been managing his illness and taking responsibility for it. He has been really trying. ............ Then why can't I get rid of this feeling that the wheels are about to fall off again! I think he is heading towards mania again...and trying hard to control it but not succeeding. His need for sex has increased dramatically again, despite a long discussion we had about it a couple of months ago. Today he told me he was going to play golf in Sydney....my son went for a bike ride and saw his (unmistakable )car in town. I will ask him about it tonight. I really hope there is a good explanation for it. Because of all the ups and downs and comings and goings in our early relationship due to his then undiagnosed bipolar, my trust is in pretty bad shape. Add that to a 20 year marriage which was ended by my ex husband's infidelity. Maybe I'm just being paranoid!
Anyway the good thing about today....I put the last full stop on my last assignment for my Masters Degree, which with all the ups and downs of relationships and divorce has taken me 5 years to complete.
PS I just spoke to him on the phone and he said he was in at golf all day and just got back at 5 pm.....mmmmmmmmmm
