And... for me, my wife was VERY important to me. That's why I gave it another chance and tried my best to save things. I do mess up as far as being mean or saying out of place things. And, yes, I do almost think it's "normal" what I did because it is to me. But I hate that she knows and that I did this. So, as for the last comment, you may be more important than you realize. Bipolar people just get bored easily and living a normal life or accepting the crap you have to go through daily is impossible when you're manic. It's all about epiphanies and figuring out that you are missing something and making changes... all while not being in the right state of mind and realizing what you are doing.