I don't know how old you are but I am 51 years old with bi-polar.
When I first had an episode at 18 even the doctor (in 1976) didn't really know what to think so I stayed in the hospital for a month while they tried different drugs.
The mania went away but I was off and on depressed and hypomanic through college.
There were a lot of tears, depression, confusion and anger...
I did stay in therapy as much as I could.
Finally, I started to just try to have a simple life and I put it back together. I got married and had 3 kids. I work some. My husband helps me with my moods.
Don't try to do too much or expect it will be "all great in one day.
Get help. Listen to critisicm (even though its not your fault you got this disease and other people who are messed up are having a great life.)
Later when you are old (like me) you will see that life has a lot of diasappointments for everyone.
I still struggle but I know everyone else is too.
Good luck to you. And take care of yourself (really!!!)