I love music and movies ,quotes language and I relish conversation but if it wasn't for those passions I would wish to be deaf and I often do wish it. I can't bear sound. People eating and drinking and swallowing. T.V and radio too loud. And the very worst is wrappers and packaging. People rustling stuff at all but especially when it seems unecessary, (to me it is all very unnecessary). I could no longer bear the cinema until I started using earplugs so I can only hear the film and not the disgusting people eating and rustling the whole damn time. God, lol. Even thinking about it drives me to distraction. I cannot hold a conversation if there are too many noises and I can be quite rude about it. More and more often I take wrappers from people who are rustling them unconsciously and I use my MP3 player to to avoid the toture of other people's noise and to avoid the day where I actually scream at someone. I spend 90% of my time in isolation like a teenager in her room. I come down stairs to watch t.v and eat with my mum but sometimes can't bear it and she knows but thinks I'm just selfish and vain. I know I make noise but I hate that too. I am exhausted and distraced most of the day and loose my place easily mid conversation. But as soon as I go to bed or its late and the world gets quieter my thoughts get louder and i'm extremely wired, creative and conversational. This has been true since I was born as well as all sound sensitiviy and I'm nocturnal sometimes to the point where I can't socialise or attend uni.and i can be hours late to meet friends. I have had periods of reclusivness some more intense than others but I'm basically happiest in isolation. My mum reads me well and often when we are out in the car running erronds she can see me get more and more stressed and once said "have you been out of the house too long?" half in a joke but it is no joke. It makes me very anti-social. I recently had a project to do for uni and avoided it like the plague for 8 months. I later got away with it which made me feel the familiar feelings of superiour intelligence and savvy and of being powerful and silver tounged. I also spend my all my money and am never happy til it's all spent but I always get more which is very lucky but adds to my exravagance and feeling that I can get away with anything.