I just don't know if I am just giving up or what, I really need the help because no one understands me and what this feels like. So, I am getting ready to go back to work, I work as a teachers aide for 3rd graders in the special eduction department. This has already got me stressing and worring because first it is hard working with the special needs kids only because my own 3 boys have ADHD and by the time I get to work I have already had it. The ones that I work with are the ones in resourse thatjust needs the extra help and 9x out of 10 they are ADHD. Then by the time I get home, I have had it with the kids at school that my own 3 get the worse of it. Second I am scared if I can handle going back, I have had a ruff summer, I just don't like to get out, and I don't want to be around crowds. I am also going the school, full time, on line. The terms are 6 months each, so there is no break. I am going for my Elementry Education Teacher. What am thinking? Can I do this? I am Super struggling in the classes, I have ADHD my self and dyslexia, let alone being 42. I am having trouble enough with my own job, I had told my bosses about me having bipolar (big mistake). They are trying to find ways to have me fired. Or, make it so bad I will quit. They said they think I am a danger to the children. How or will I ever get a job? This summer I went through 10 days with a migraine, I am going through very crazy depressed feelings right now. I just want to get away. I don't think I would kill myself because I don't want to do that to my kids but all they do is walk on egg shells and learn how to scream like mommy. Am I takeing on way to much? How much can someone with bipolar do?