I'm currently on medicaid, but it will run out by the end of this month. It's running out because I moved to go to grad school, and I was told that I need to re-apply in my new city to get coverage. The thing is, it can take up to 45 days to get medicaid. I haven't applied yet because they want me to either have a job, or get public assistance. I can't get public assistance because a) don't need it and b) I don't pay my rent to my landlord (he doesn't even speak English) I pay it to  my roomate. I'm not on the lease either. I dont think the landlord or my roomate would appreciate getting money through public assistance. they treat landlords poorly, which is why only the slum landlords accept people on public assistance.

I'm living on loans... but either way I should have a job and can hopefully prove to them that I can afford my rent. Yet, even if I apply tommarrow, it will still take up to 45 days!! I can't wait that long, unless I want to stop taking my meds for a month! Furthurmore, to complicate things, I just got a new psychiatrist, but the medication that I've been taking (and that has been really helping me... many other people have said this too) is a medication that he told me he thinks is a placebo. (he said this during the first 20 minutes that I met him. I'm not so sure about his quality as a dr to jump to such conclusins so early on.)

So, I think, great...if I need someone to vouch for me that I really need my meds, and can't wait a month (or go off them for a month), what is he going to say? I dont want to go through another year or two to get a NEW medication regim when this one works so well with hardly any side effects!!!

I am very very frustrated and terrified!! Sorry to those people who don't take their meds, but I'm not like those idiots who think they don't need them. I've lived too much of my life in agony- depression, mixed episodes, dysphoric hypomania... you name it... and I don't want to go back. I've been healthy for over 6 months and I just am terrified of going back to that hell!!!!!!!

Also, I'm starting college this month, and I need my meds to function and to hold a job!! I take triliptal 300 mg 3x a day, and zoloft 100 mg 1day.

What should I do when I can't afford my meds and I'm having trouble getting insurance and my new doctor says, during the first 20 mintues that I meet him, that he thinks my meds are placebo (even though my last doctor didn't think that!) What do I do?? What are my options??