hello, i'm new here. so this is very hard for me. i just found out 3 months ago that i was bipolar.my dr. put me on carbamazepine,200 mg. twice a day . and just today he put me on lithium,300 mg. three times a day. plus i'm taking 4 pain pills for my degenerate disc disese & 3 sleeping pills. i've never taken many pills before, so now it's kinda scary taking so many. sometimes it seems i feel ok , then i blow up & lose it. it happens all the time. do you stop losing control when you get the right meds. ? i just feel so alone, like i have felt most of my life. i cry alot of the time for no reason at all. it happens when i go out, like to the store & people look at me like i'm crazy, then i say something stupid for a excuse.then i just want to rush home where i know i'm safe. i think this is going to be a pretty scary journey. please answer me ..