Well,.. I'm well versed in disorder and psychology as need be,. by the way,.. type I bipolar here, never medicated, music, psychology, and philosophy and I actually do quite amazingly in my life. I try different things, but for those who haven't really tried, CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) it's definitely worth a shot, though I've moved on,... for people that say it's uncurable,.. sure,. I guess,.. but most certainly managable,.. quite a gift rather. Type II's a bit of a different story but remember here I am, stable, no meds, diagnosed 6 years ago and it's very real for me. Anyways,.. the real question I have here is this:
There's definitively been made in the psychological community a correlation between mental disorder and substance abuse and addiction problems (obviously,.. obsessive are we much? ) including sexual addictions. I'd like to hear from people here,.. and be honest guys,.. about bipolar tendencies towards either true bisexuality or generalized sexual indentification problems in general. In my experience we're certainly highly sexual, and I've gone through the loop myself determining the truth to my sexuality,.. which apparently (as complicated as it gets) is a stable bisexual with an emotional preference of the heterosexual variety. Why I mention it is because I certainly went through alot along the way in determining this identity and I'm wondering how much of it was due to the disorder. How many people have had similar problems,... remember,.. every human being actually goes through the dilemna themselves be it conscious or unconscious but would you agree that we're more conscious of it? (and long winded as well lolcats)
I'd be amazed if anyone here said they were completely definitely on one side of the spectrum or the other. We blur reality every day of our lives.
I'm glad you made this post. Up until the age of 19 I was the most confident heterosexual out there. Had a great self image, my brother is transsexual ( was my sister) whom I love and except very much, I have a very excepting and open minded family, and had a great sex life. When I was in college I suffered a series of performance issues that lead to comming down on myself very hard about it and called myself gay in my head. Ontop of that, before I went to college i had a terrible relationship with a very controlling, cheating, no good bitch of a girlfriend that left me feeling like relationships and love were stupid. After college I entered into another relationship with a girl despite all of that and I ended up feeling trapped and uninterested in her. With the combination of these things I (obsessivly) tried to find answers to my own sexuality. By doing this I started to view all of my friends differently, many patterens formed (thinking things even tho you don't nessisarily believe it and cant get it out of your head) that lead to a manic depressive state all based around sexuality. I am a very creative person, always have been, I play piano, guitar, drums, all self taught. I started linking that to my sexuality some how, ( stupid subconcious cycles). It's just sucked more and more since then. On top of all that I now have a 1 month old boy with the girl I was with from the start.
To answer your question about the sexual tendencies part, I have always loved my male friends, any feelings of sexuality seem to have been results of questioning my sexuality based on performance issues. This i believe had initialy lead me to the "bipolar"state i feel now. I have not been diagnosed with any form of bipolar execpt from my own research, I'll be visiting a psychologist soon so i can better myself and my family.
I am a married female and during manic episodes I become very focused on seeking members of the same sex. Spending hours online searching for someone. Hyper sexuality is a huge problem for me. I want to take every sexual encounter I have to the extreme without regards to my safety. It's part of it.......the self importance, feeling larger than life and sex is like a sport for me. I hunt it, catch it, devour it then spit it out. The difficult part is if I develop a relationship with a female it is hard for them to understand why I loose interest in them so quickly......it's a never ending cycle kind of like playing roulette, my mind spins and spins and I never know where it will stop.......