Hi Daphne, and thank you for answering my question.

I'm glad that you're getting your life back. I understand it takes some patience to deal with this. It does help knowing that we can overcome BP with the right meds. Right now my meds are bringing me back and I'm feeling more and more ME. What broke me down and made got all the energy I had left, was the stressed inflicted by my superiors in my last 2 jobs. It's very common to have to deal with who is in power to "play" with your life, which is more unstable than we with BP are. They all have mental problems and not even meds are helping them; I think they have been missed diagnosed... What I don't understand is why they are still left to do such responsible jobs if they can't handle themselves? It does a lot of damage to those who are doing their best to over come their own illnesses and it's just like a snow ball falling down the hill... It is hard enough to have to deal with superiors with the right credentials but not with the ability to deal with people, and on top of that dealing with those who have mental illnesses but have no perception on how bad they affect those who work for them...

I love working because it's very therapeutic, but when I'm left to work in peace and quiet, not when I have to deal with other people's hell vomited on me so they can feel "better" about themselves...

This is my biggest problem Daphne; I can't deal with people like that anymore. I wish they would start seeing how wrong they are in screaming and offending or humiliating others just for the sake of their stupidity and craziness. For me it's just work, no BP, no nothing. I never brought my problems nor my depression or anger to work; I leave them in stand by because they are my problems, not to make an excuse out of them... I'm thinking of going back to looking for a job soon when I feel well enough and I am already praying to find one without crazy people in it, because I've lost the ability to deal with that kind of pressure, it triggers all the bad of BP in me.

Again, thank you for your input and support. I'm here for you if you ever need me.

Alex

Hi Alex, good to hear from you.  My degree is in child-development and el. & special education.  Boy, was it not for me. I managed 20 years and no more.  I just volunteer now.  I am married for 25 years, so that helps a great deal.  My first principal was a game player and all the veteran teachers would tell me ABOUT HER. sHE ONCE TOLD ME THAT SHE WAS GOING TO "FRY HER LIKE A MAGGOT IN A PAN," CONCERNING A TEACHER.  I don't know if I've evey heard anything that vindictive again. You                  get that she was difficult  and I stayed 21/2yrs. Through hit and miss teaching jobs I found a library job and I was sexually harrassedover 5 times and part of my 401 k contributions were stolen by the finance secretary and she told the boss that I was strange. She was partly jealous because i had an engagement and wedding ring and she didn't.  Also, nothing happened to the sexual harrassers because they had clout and treated me so ugly you wouldn't believe it. finally I left cause I was pregnant.  Have a good day.  I've mad partially for finding the right man(with God's help)  and working very hard so I won't destroy my family and friends.  There is a dark side but we are just getting to know each other so;;;maybe later---Daphne

Hi Daphne.

I'm so sorry that you had so many problems at work too. Why can't we just work and leave? My 1st job, when I moved to this city, was the beginning of many others with the insane... After a few months I was having lunch alone, because my co-workers were told by our boss to do so. I don't ever go along their dirty policies and there for I often resist all the attempts to make me bent to their will to fit to their manipulation. So I haven't sold my soul to anyone yet... I'm good at whatever I'm suppose to do at work and they always love my work, but they can't get over the fact that I think for myself and I don't need to bent to their wishes of incompetence, so they have to go far to harm me anyway they can because their egos don't compute that I belong to myself only. I don't understand where it's written that we belong to those who hired us for our skills! They seem to think that they can talk and command whatever they want because they own us and that will be always a problem for me. In my last job I was kicked out after 4 years because I rejected my superior, as a man, and after he found out I was dating his long time friend he snapped. So this is how competent and professional they are... I don't date nobody at work specially my boss or any other superior, these are my rules and they see it as me having more power than I should have. Most women he wanted there did what he wish, they slept with him, I didn't, so bye bye me...

After so many of these situations I lost motivation to go back to this insanity. I already have so much to deal with that this situations at work just exhausted me completely... I'm a very tough woman but my brain is too tired to have this kind of pressure and the "or else" threats  that I'm really praying to have better luck next time ... Really, life is so short, why complicate it so much for such stupid interests? I have no patience.

By the way, CONGRATULATIONS!!! Wow 25 years of marriage?! Way to go!!! I wish you 50 more great and happy years!!!  See you soon, I like talking to you.

Alex