seems like sometimes i forget what i say or do hours later after feeling low
is this normal
No tricks now or malicious mischief.
Memory is interesting. We have short term memory and long term. Items come and go in short term memory, like the thought to grasp the handle of the fridge to open it. If an item stays in short term memory for a period of time, like a phone number you repeat to yourself to memorize then it gets stored in long term memory for recall at a later time.
Interestingly when you are feling low or depressed, one would believe there is not much activity in the brain but the opposite is true, the brain is very active during depressive episodes. Think of all of the negative thoughts taking place and how they can be intrusive.
So, I am going to go out on a limb, without researching the possible answers and say, it is possible with all the activity going on in the mind, during depression, that particular thoughts do not stay in short term memory very long, and are not logged into long term memory. This could be a possible reason why you experience some memory difficulty with certain things.
Another reason may be due to some medications you may be on. If this is causing you some difficulty, you may ask your psychiatrist about it at your next appointment and see if there is some relationship with any of your medications and what may be done about it.
Is this normal? I am sure you are not the only one who has experinced this.