I am in recovery (3 1/2 mths. sober) after 4yrs. of meth use and my mind is in a whirlwind of mood swings. I alternate between periods of major depression (suicidal thoughts) and a slightly elevated mood. My moods seem to alternate as often as every other day,with my elevated moods occuring after an extended period of sleep (12-24 hrs.) Alot of the symptoms of Post Acute Withdrawal are the same as those of bipolar disorder.
I have been struggling with addiction to meth for just over a year now and i am only a few weeks sober after having a relapse after being sober for about 4mo. well my family just told me recently that they thing i am bipolar so naturally me being me, i researched it and found symptoms of the different types of bipolar and found that i now believe i have bipolar depression. I have all of the symptoms of pmdd but they are constant, not just around my time for my period. I am thinking i have been self medicating with meth to relieve my symptoms, because i loved the way it made me feel and have trouble staying away from it when i always feel so overwhelmed, sad, unhappy, mad, just depressed and yet anxious to do something with my life then i lose interest in what i wanted to do. I feel like i'm constantly running in a hampster wheel. I get tired easily and recently havent been able to sleep at night which has been a cycle of mine for most of my life. and before meth i think i self medicated with lortab until that didnt work anymore. after i got off meth i started drinking often just to get that pick me up. so i guess im just searching for ways to alleviate what i feel unfortunately. but thanks to my family, i now know that i acctually have something wrong w/ me that thank god is treatable w/ medicine that will actually work w/o me ending up in prison for years lol so that is a relief. I just wanted to share my story with you because i read urs and they seem similar. thank you for posting your story because otherwise i wouldnt have found that my theory was correct (about me self medicating with meth for being bipolar). so i want to thank you!
I have alot of friends that use meth on a regular basis ive seen them up and ive seen them down I have bipolar and it seems that i go through the same things that they do, but i do not use meth so i'm thinking that alot of people who use meth and think they have bipolar actually arnt bipolar but just useing meth