I've done TONS of research. I knew nothing of this illness when I first entered my living hell. Reading stories of real people is very helpful to understand the different incarnations of this illness. I've learned from other's experiences. I've received support from those who understand what I'm going through because friend and family don't really understand it. I'm sure everyone who visits these forums takes something different away from the experience. These forums have helped ease the pain to some degree for me. This has been the worse experience of my life so far and I appreciate the answers, insight and support I've received from this site and others. These forums aren't for everyone.