Sometimes I am very sensitive to things that sometimes does or doesn't bother me. I get irrtable and if I don't relax myself quick which usually I can't I experience extreme rage and sometimes I end up scratching myself or throwing something at the wall or on the floor sometimes breaking it. This lasts for about maybe 20 minutes and then its like am either happy again or still stuck in an empty mood. I have trouble getting to sleep at socially acceptiable times. All I know about my family's history is that my cousin was diagnosed with bi- polar.





I find this somewhat helpful. I don't even feel the pain right then when I am scratching and I find comfort in doing this while rocking myself back and worth. I also find comfort in taking a really long hot bath but the rapid thoughts don't stop until a few minutes or even hours. I was wondering it it would be bi-polar seeing that I have some history of it in my family. My cousin was diagnosed very early in his life and now he is in his late 30's and I was wondering seeing that I am in my early 20's there could be a connection. I wouldn't know who else in my family could have bi-polar because everyone seems to deny or fear that anything runs in the family like that. I am searching to seek help for this but am afraid that I am going to be locked up in a hospital because they deem me a danger to myself and others
Thanks for the post!