Here it is another day and I have been off of seroquel after taking it a year.  I have had a difficult time getting off of this medication on my own but the geodan was a substitute of only 40mgs.  I felt this hypomania coming on and I had not been sleeping good at all so last night I took 12.5mgs.of ambien cr and still didn't sleep hardly but 2-3hours.  Kind of a strange sleep.  I guess it will get better hopingly on sleep as this medication gets in my system.  Problem is I feel like I got alot of sleep.  I guess it is the coming down off of the high I was experiencing from the things that happened to me that set this off.  First off I wasn't taking a strong enough mg. of seroquel to help me at 300mgs. I should of been on 400 but I knew I would be getting off of it and going to the "guinea pig"syndrome again.  It was time for a change.  Don't get me wrong....seroquel is a great medication for all states of bipolar but my weight was getting to me with knee problems and foot. I am tired of fat clothes went from a size 14 to a size 18 and never went back down on seroquel.  My cholesterol,tryclerides high and my weight was 180 at 5'4.   I was totally miserable.  I would go to the walking track everyday but the hunger seroquel bought me waking me up to eat thru the night was getting monotonous!  This geodan is doing okay if it starts helping me sleep.  It is in the same class of drug 2nd generation antipsychotic so it ought to hold down the mania and grab hold of it better by Sunday when I go up to 80 mgs.  This mania can get pretty difficult .........and I will be glad it to calm down and I can be my normal self as in sleeping.  I had an altered state of mind as if my brain was magnified and it would not shut off.  I guess this is the life of a manic in a "manic episode" and I finally learned how to take care of it myself without hospitolization. AhHa!

Didn't want to go into the hospitol due to they load you up on meds and care less about the side effects.  I have finally formed a wonderful relationship with my pdoc and it has been very difficult to deal with in the past.  That is why I was on seroquel for so long. If you feel afraid of your pdoc you will never get nowheres with him/her.  You have got to be assertive and make your mind up to a drug and stick with it.  I am 1/4 well today but getting better. My motor skills are fine.  I just need to catch some Zzzzzzz's due to a recital I have to attend tonight two towns over.   Thanks for reading this.  I will keep you posted of how the geodan is compared to seroquel for me and I am the type that will not accept bad side effects to linger.