effexor didnt work prozac didnt work ambien didnt help me sleep trazadone didnt help me sleep seroquel didnt do anything.

I'm 21 years old, female, and I've been misdiagnosed, on the wrong meds, struggling with self mutilation for years, bulimia and anorexia, and just a chaotic head, a mess, and since I turned 21 in december; and also in the past when I wasn't seeing a doctor or anything, I've used alcohol to quiet the mind at night and to keep me from being a scrambled mess, ripping apart my room, scribbing random things on paper, starting new "projects" and never finishing, I was hospitalized in february, laceration, down to the bone, and i recently got my second dui, i live in pa, and if i dont remember anything from either of them, i've been a psychotic monster mess, and if i didnt get in the accident from my second, i would have literally died, my lungs collapse from basically drinking myself to death and from taking ativan that day from my severe anxiety attacks, i've waited and waited to see the psych since my first hospitilation in which i signed myself in and was put in the outpatient program, i see a therapist once every week, i constantly keep trying to keep myself busy to keep myself sane, i have no friends, they left, my mother is an alcoholic and just selfish, my sisters dont care, and my boyfriend is a huge frustrated big mess and he left me after i almost died from the laceration, then he came back, and then he finally committed again after i had a closer call with death from the dui. im so hopeless and sick of being told "i cant help you or i'm not going to help you or what makes you think you're bipolar" and im sick of hating myself for being put in messes like this when i dont remember or i didnt choose them. i spoke with my lawyer today and with all the laws on the dui stuff for pa and my bac was .30 and yet again i emphasize i almost died, still, they don't care if you have been misdiagnosed, not on the right meds, what you're going through..and i just want to give up, this whole mess, everything, really makes me see why people kill themselves, and i just can't deal with it. is there anything, anything at all that can relieve anything from the messed up court system? is there any hope for someone who has been crying for help and going through hell to get this sentence lessened? i just know i cant deal with it, and to be treated like a criminal and go to jail for something i didnt consciously choose to do, i've never had a traffic ticket, nothing, but i have my second dui that i dont remember, and that i didnt choose to get in my car, and i've been pleading for help to numerous doctors for some time, and it seems like i'm a joke to them, and they just shove me out the door. im hopeless, i want to give up so bad.