I have been going through huge manic swings recently. ((If I ever spoke the words running through my mind, I would be locked up and the key throw away.)) I am so terrified of M.D.s, hospitals, even large groups of people, movies, ect. ((This is ALMOST A POST TRAMUATIC STRESS - post war time- when I am cornered I react extremely violently.)) I have no insurance and huge medical bills from life. What do I do when I know I need help, but have no way to get it? Like I have said many times I LOVE and TRUST animals 1000 times more than any human. Atleast you know where you stand with animals. Everyone has teeth and claws which can be used for affection or defense. These are Predators not house pets. (Good morning or I will eat you), not like a HUMAN that would shake your hand and stab your heart. I am being torn up on the inside and doing anything I can just to hold it together right now. What should I do, I have no money, no insurance, no one to really talk too, I cry and sob daily.... This just isn't like me AT ALL.