Torn in a million pieces and not sure of the next step

Hmm...I 100% understand were you are coming from. Especially trusting animals more than humans. I mean I trust my Pomeranian more than I do any guy on this planet! LOL However, most people, especially in todays society, will diagnose you as depressed or bipolar. I totally disagree. I went through a really low point in my life and was diagnosed with depression and bipolar at the same time! Yikes! I was even prescribed meds!

I was in the worst state of life ever to the point were I didnt care about school, family, or even my favorite hobby, shopping! I was so miserable, mad, angry, and would have the worst fits of rage you could think of. I even cried myself to sleep every night and hated life. This lasted for about 8 months.

However, one day I talked to a friend and she told me about writing everything I was feeling and thinking down on paper. I ended up writing 10 pages in 2 hours!!! on my personal things and saw what was triggering this "mess" I was in. I just flat out refuse to let society tell me im "bipolar" and "depressed" when in all honesty, YOU are the one who controls what you feel. Now, I live life on the edge and take chances. My confidence  AND self-esteem has skyrocketed, because of ME. Not the doctors and not the meds! If somebody hurts me emotionally or breaks my trust, I move on and say "big deal" Life is too short and soooooooo much better knowing I don't have to rely on meds to not only be happy, but be at PEACE. Peace and happiness are two different thinks :) And not to preach at all, but I prayed and my relationship with Jesus is the reason why I am the way I am. I'm not perfect and still get sad, but who doesn't? The only difference is the sadness only last 8 minutes compared to 8 months. All I'm working on rite now is trust in guys LOL One day at a time hun

Hmm...I 100% understand were you are coming from. Especially trusting animals more than humans. I mean I trust my Pomeranian more than I do any guy on this planet! LOL However, most people, especially in todays society, will diagnose you as depressed or bipolar. I totally disagree. I went through a really low point in my life and was diagnosed with depression and bipolar at the same time! Yikes! I was even prescribed meds!

I was in the worst state of life ever to the point were I didnt care about school, family, or even my favorite hobby, shopping! I was so miserable, mad, angry, and would have the worst fits of rage you could think of. I even cried myself to sleep every night and hated life. This lasted for about 8 months.

However, one day I talked to a friend and she told me about writing everything I was feeling and thinking down on paper. I ended up writing 10 pages in 2 hours!!! on my personal things and saw what was triggering this "mess" I was in. I just flat out refuse to let society tell me im "bipolar" and "depressed" when in all honesty, YOU are the one who controls what you feel. Now, I live life on the edge and take chances. My confidence  AND self-esteem has skyrocketed, because of ME. Not the doctors and not the meds! If somebody hurts me emotionally or breaks my trust, I move on and say "big deal" Life is too short and soooooooo much better knowing I don't have to rely on meds to not only be happy, but be at PEACE. Peace and happiness are two different thinks :) And not to preach at all, but I prayed and my relationship with Jesus is the reason why I am the way I am. I'm not perfect and still get sad, but who doesn't? The only difference is the sadness only last 8 minutes compared to 8 months. All I'm working on rite now is trust in guys LOL One day at a time hun

Hmm...I 100% understand were you are coming from. Especially trusting animals more than humans. I mean I trust my Pomeranian more than I do any guy on this planet! LOL However, most people, especially in todays society, will diagnose you as depressed or bipolar. I totally disagree. I went through a really low point in my life and was diagnosed with depression and bipolar at the same time! Yikes! I was even prescribed meds!

I was in the worst state of life ever to the point were I didnt care about school, family, or even my favorite hobby, shopping! I was so miserable, mad, angry, and would have the worst fits of rage you could think of. I even cried myself to sleep every night and hated life. This lasted for about 8 months.

However, one day I talked to a friend and she told me about writing everything I was feeling and thinking down on paper. I ended up writing 10 pages in 2 hours!!! on my personal things and saw what was triggering this "mess" I was in. I just flat out refuse to let society tell me im "bipolar" and "depressed" when in all honesty, YOU are the one who controls what you feel. Now, I live life on the edge and take chances. My confidence  AND self-esteem has skyrocketed, because of ME. Not the doctors and not the meds! If somebody hurts me emotionally or breaks my trust, I move on and say "big deal" Life is too short and soooooooo much better knowing I don't have to rely on meds to not only be happy, but be at PEACE. Peace and happiness are two different thinks :) And not to preach at all, but I prayed and my relationship with Jesus is the reason why I am the way I am. I'm not perfect and still get sad, but who doesn't? The only difference is the sadness only last 8 minutes compared to 8 months. All I'm working on rite now is trust in guys LOL One day at a time hun