i have been diagnosed with major depression and i was on cipramil - various dosages but i decided to stop taking it because i felt too high. i did get highs before i started taking any medication and occasionally as a child, but was told that the sillyness and highs were just a symptom of built up stress from the several years of sexual abuse. on cipramil i got 'high' more frequently and for longer periods than i ever had without it (i believe they got worse) that is why i stopped taking it and went to see the doc - i still need something for my depression but refuse to take cipramil again and dont want to go on an antidepressant if it will make me too happy. after doing a bit of research on bipolar disorder i have come to notice similarities in the symptoms of bi polar and myself - (not trying to self diagnose, jut want a CORRECT diagnosis i dont think what i am experiencing is built up stress from child abuse ) the doctors told me that i probably am not bipolar because nobody in my family is and i havent been on a high for months of whatever, but when i was reading some info i found out about rapid cycling - is rapid cycling common? sometimes i only get happy and then sad very quickly or for a few minutes - its just so intense... what exactly makes a high "mania" that i have read about. all i know is my boyfriend is more scared of me on a high than a low and i am sick of the f ing rollercoaster - i draw the line at rolling around on my floor laughing at cans of tomatoes for several hours because they are funny and pretty.. i think i need some help before i get worse and i dont feel the doctors here really know too much about it and wondered what an expert in the field thought - i currently have no access to an expert i trust. what are the likely things i might need to research??
i need to know if cymbalta is likely to get me high.. because im not doing that again... please help