we all have to find a way to like ourselves, before anyone else    can like us.  Pills can only do so much. They probably are helping    but you need more, like a social worker, or support group.       to find ways to not explode .  Do this for yourself, not just    for her.  Before youre ready to explode , pick up the phone,      and call a toll free mental health line and tell them how you    feel and why.   yell at them , instead of someone else.          by the time you call back, you ll get a different worker    anyways.  when you feel more stable,  write your wife a letter,       being honest about everything, once every few weeks. this    will help you.    and by all means, make sure ya go to    gamblers anonymous,  noone else wil understand about your    gambling.