I too have Stage 4 breast cancer.  I was diagnosed 2 years ago and am still kicking cancers butt with everything available.  Do not give up.  There are many women who have written to me to say they are living 5 yrs. later, 7 years later , 11 years later.  No it is not you will live another 30 yrs ......but only God knows why we have this awlful cancer with a bad outcome.  Believe me I am ver mad at God a lot of days too.  Some how you have to come to terms with what you have (it took me 6 months) and celebrate each day, and fit cancer all the way.  Clinical tests, legistaion, new drugs anything.....but I think importantly a positive outlook.  This very dark hole you are on will become lighter each day until you are out of it.  Keep believing there is hope.  That's what I do every day I give my daughter a kiss.  You are in our prayers.....good luck