Yesterday I recieved my Oncotype dx Taylor X study results. After waiting 14 days I didnt even know if i wanted the result anymore. I had sort of gotten comfortable put cancer behind me, safely away where I didnt have to face it everyday. But here it is again. So this is the deal. The trial goes like this. (this test determines reaccurance)

If you score 0 to 10 you get radiation with drug threrapy. If you score 11 to 25 you get chemo. Greater than 26 is chemo, radiation and the works.

My oncologist was sure I would score low. I was sure I would score low. But as nothing has been as I thought this was not either. My score was 22, the hairy edge of high. I was shocked. This meant that the study would decide my treatment as i had commited my self to them for the good of research. I asked my dr. what he would have chosen for me he said his choice would have been chemo. For me the study had chosen radiation with drug therapy, no chemo. For a few moments I felt panic, should i drop out of the study and  make my own choice?

I am so tired of doing this, doctor visits, needle sticks, medicine, fighting with insurance, being felt up by doctors, tests, people,guilt. BREAST CANCER, I hate breast cancer! So i am not dropping the study I will do my radiation and take my drug Anastraozole and pray to god for few side affects.

And for the rest of you out there with breast cancer find a trial study, do one, its so important. It might not change things for you but it can change things for your daughters and your grand daughters. :)

Laura