Mastectomy on Wednesday

Well I went to talk about a plan so I thought, with the Dr. yesterday. Soon as I got in the room he said well with you being so young and having the big lump in 1the right breast and 2 in the other there is no other way but to remove them both. I knew that might have been what he suggested, but I don't think I was ready to hear that. Then he told me April 23rd. I thought omg i'm having to take all this in so fast. I am so scared. I wish my mother could be here by my side, but I know she is watching above.

I have been thinking about the reconstruction, but I read that it usually involves 2 surgeries. Breast first then nipple. I just went and applied for medicaid today and i'm not sure they will cover the reconstruction. But the Dr told me I will more than likely go through chemo and would know more after surgery. So i'm in for a long journey. It just still seems unreal I find out I've got breast cancer and 8 days later i'm sceduled for a mastectomy.