peaches

Health Interests

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Drugs I am Taking

Don't know yet. Chemo starts on Jan. 9th.

About Me

This mess started at exactly the wrong time for us.  My husband is a 100% disabled veteran.  We have lived in the Western United States for the last 25 years.  Prior to that, we lived in the Midwest.  Reciently, my husband decided that he wanted to move back to the Midwest to be closer to the children and grandchildren.  His Mother, whom i'm very close to, also lived there but in a large and very crime ridden area.  Our plan was to move her in to our new home where she would be more comfortable and much safer.

When i was diagnosed with cancer, we had already sold our home and purchased another 1500 miles away.  So-o-o.... in between visits to the Dr., surgeries and the intestinal infection, i helped my husband move all our belongings, furniture and the acummulated stuff of 25 years to the new home.  Then, i helped move Mom and all her belongings, furniture, etc. to her new home.

I have done some internet research with respect to the medical care, that i can afford, both here and in the state we are relocating to.  Medical care here is much better.  Now, i have to decide if i should stay here for treatments or accept what is available where we will relocate to.  Cost is a major issue too.  No insurance.

If i stay here, my husband will have to make a trip East at least once a month to make sure all is well with Mom at the new house.  A huge expense.  If i go back there and live, i will have to settle for substandard treatments due to the expense of better care. 

I have worked all my life and was just about to retire when all this started.  Now, i will not have enough time in to retire and will have to quit my job for health reasons..... and i loved my job!!!  Probably wouldn't have retired anyway!! 

I'm ready to give up.  All i read about cancer treatments is disheartening.  My Oncologist says i have a 23% chance of lasting another 10 years!!  Well, yes, that is better than nothing but i would rather not deal with the pain of a long treatment and the anxiety of wondering day to day if it will come back and then i may not outlive the expense of my treatments.  That sure isn't fair to my husband! 

How can i deal with all this????