as life continues or the newest and bluest

Some of you have heard by now that this past Mon. nite my friend Larry Brown lost his battle w/cancer. Larry was a ff/engineer for the Kissimmee FD for 31 years. Of all the 18 yrs I have been here in Kissimmee, all the firefighters I have known, all the funerals I've had to attend, this, this 1 is the hardest. All the years I've been fighting my cancer, when Larry was diagnosed, I thought with no doubts in this world, that I would die before Larry. Seems that wasn't to be. Larry was a very special person, and a wonderful friend. Once upon a time, before yet another dream had to be pushed away, I wanted to be a member of the Honor Guard. To me, that is the highest compliment you can give to a ff, Leo, military subject. When I got turned down at the pd because I was only a civilian employee, instead of letting my dream die, Larry told me as soon as the doc told me I could hold a rifle or flag (I was fighting cancer battle #1 at the time), I would be welcomed with open arms to join his/KFD Honor Guard. That dream will be buried now, but I will never forget that Larry was willing to allow me the chance to honor those that mean so much to me. Thru some very tough times in my 13 years with the city, Larry was often there giving me needed support as well as friendship.

Rest In Peace Larry You are in Heaven still watching over us

 

 

 

The other peace of news is the disability pension hearing did not go well. They have asked for more paperwork from social security and are sending me to another doctor for another independent medical exam. This has been a long hard week. I don't know how much more physical, emotional, mental pain I can really take. For what seems like a very rare time since my own cancer battle began, I am just not sure I have much of anything left in me. I used to be able to bounce back fast, be there to help others, but not this time. I don't believe in suicide; because I don't believe in hurting those I care about. I just don't have any strength left for any fight.

 

 

 

 

Stay Safe,
Robyn