Hi I know how worried you must be. I am in the same boat. My grandmother died from breast cancer 30 yrs ago. She was 54. My mother got diagnosed with it last yr in April. She was 55. She had a lumpectomy and radiation. She is doing ok in regards to cancer. (she has other issues not related to the cancer at this stage) and I got diagnosed in June last yr. I was 34 at the time. I had a lumpectomy initially, but had to got back for bilateral mastectomy and am now having chemo (since last Sept). Am up to my last taxol this week. Then have herceptin for the rest of this yr. Had lymph nodes removed also as it had spread to 3 of them. No cancer in right side but was advised that due to my age and family history better off having bilateral mastectomy to limit risk of recurrence. My mother has had the test for the genetic mutation (Brac1 and Brac2) but results are not back yet. Apparently this test can take months. I also have an 8 yr old daughter that I am very worried about. I am worried that I might not make it to help her to be vigilant in general health, but more specifically breast health, and I am also worried that whether I do or I dont make it (I am praying for making it) we may not be able to avoid it. And not only that, i am 35 now and the cloud hanging over my head at my age is depressing enough. To know that she is going to have to worry about it even earlier than me, I feel somewhat like a failure to know that even unknowingly I have put her in this position. But even more than that, I can deal with my own feelings but the thought of her being scared about this is what really gets to me. None of us want to see our children hurt or scared at any age, let alone when they are young and are supposed to be enjoying all that the world has to offer them. Anyway prayers and thoughts to everyone dealing with any kind of sickness. God bless us all.