Radiologists and Physicists, My new best friends!

Hi All, So now I am really learning about waiting...just more waiting, but I am very confident that all will be fine. Today I met with the radiology oncologist(Dr. Williamson, lady) and she told me more than I ever wanted to know about radiation. So they have all this new cool stuff to radiate your tumor and not your lungs or your heart...because THAT is really bad. We also talked about how long it will take. The biggest side effects of radiation are skin burn, muscle tautness and fatigue. 6 weeks, monday through friday, about 20-40 minutes to get all positioned and radiated, then you get a little sunburn and maybe some peeling. The good thing is that your skin and muscle gets taut, and lifts your boob! That sounds nice, except you're only gettin' one done so the other one is out of luck and hangs where it is...but you can get a lift on the other one, and that is entirely a plastic surgery procedure...ooh, yet another doctor. Ugh. Then....I get to be on Tamoxofen for five years, so that any other cells do not pop up some other place in my body! Don't really know what else to say. If you know of some success stories about breast cancer, please share them with me...but I have had enough horror stories, so let's just keep them to a...none, please. I know it's going to be okay. But it still sucks and I'm still pissed. I think they should change the pink ribbon to the camo-desert storm ribbon. Let's all wait some more and find out what other fun stuff i'll get to do. I have told most of my family and friends now that I know I am stage 1 and very treatable. That's good. Now I am talking about it. At first I didn't want to talk about it at all, now I want to tell everyone. I just told a guy in the parking lot, "Hi, I have cancer, can you put your cigarrete out, jerk?" Then some days, I just don't want to even believe it. I didn't actually say "jerk". So hit me back, need to hear you all out there right now, I want to have a little party, but I know most of you want to go trick or treat with your kids on Halloween...and who knows if I will have use of my arm then...so I may not want to party. I feel like I just want to see your faces all in one place and hug and hug you and then take a big nap after I have had my fill of lovie-hugs.