So, Im almost done with treatment! I just had the first of my last infusions today. I have 2 left after today. I'll be done on the 15th. Im so... happy? I mean I am happy, but its weird to think I just wait now... for it to come back- for it not to come back. I don't think that feeling of impending doom is ever going to let up.
Also my oncologist agreed to give me MRI's now. I am happy about that, they take longer but they're not radiation. I have been reading a lot of studies about the over prescribed usage of CAT scans and linking them to cancer. It's a giant freaking x-ray... we know that's not good. Considering everything. I'd like to not turn into chernobyl anytime soon.
I've decided to put together a charity art show for sarcoma research (sorry BC ladies) I got a missing boobie but sarcoma is an underfunded under-loved area of cancer research, and it's what I have. My oncologists eyes light up like flashbulbs... he was telling me about tax codes for charities, guest lists and that he wanted to give a speech and buy art. RIGHT ON! I figure I need to do SOMETHING in appreciation of not dying. I'll make a boatload of cash for research and patient care. I have a LOT of friends in the industry (more famous than myself)... I need help coming up with a theme for the show. I want the different styles of art to have a common theme.
Aside from that I think I might teach an art therapy class. Being creative is a great way to unload some of the fears you have roiling around your brian.
I think nude modeling would be cool too... got body issues? What better way to get over them than to show them to a bunch of discerning art students? I think it would have been neat to draw a cancer patient in life drawing when I was in school. So much I wanna do now that I am nearly done with cancer treatment.



Well, congratulations!!! It is indeed scary to think about being done treatment - which is weird, because it's been your goal all along, and now you've got some angst. Cpompletely natural. It's the "Who's going to take care of me now?" syndrome. In fact, I've written a post on it... Time heals, Tracey; gradually you'll get your confidence in the future back. Not like it once was, but you'll definitely feel better.
Art show sounds like it'll be a GREAT fund-raiser. Theme: How about transformation? Hope you raise a TON for sarcoma research. As you say, incredibly under-funded and in need of all the help it can get. And you're definitely the woman to get things going in the right direction!
Good luck as you head down the chemo home stretch here... I'm sending you healing. PJH