PJ,
And nothing pretty to look at. DO you know I have never seen snow? I live in LA. I can go to Big Bear...but I don't like the cold....but I LOVE snow.
It seems so virginal, and renewing. I can't look at anything pretty right now. It just makes me cry.
I loved this read. I am totally crying.
Peg.
Peg, trust me. Your emotions are incredibly raw right now, and you'll be crying a lot. It's good; it's cleansing. It allows you to gather strength for the battle ahead. You've taken a few good licks, but you'll find how incredibly strong you are. Pick a spot on the horizon, and move towards it ever day. Some days only a few steps; some days lots of progress. You CAN and WILL do this. I know it for sure. Peace - PJH
I've seen plenty of snow in Moscow, when my husband was posted there. Your description is so beautiful & lifelike.Equating it with the change that comes in our lives after cancer, I mean the slowing down, brought tears to my eyes. But they were tears of joy. It's the sharing that's so awesome and inspiring. Yes,I absolutely agree with you. Once we are forced to slow down, we discover that we were rushing around madly without the need to do so. It's life's best secret AND gift, to find contentment in whatever we can do or are capable of doing...at our own measured pace.
This is such a beautiful post, almost a literary classic piece, that I want to send it to the hospital I was treated at for displaying it as an inspiration to all those who are going through the same grind that we went through. May I?
It took both the tumor and the fractures as wake-up calls to get me to do what I knew that I should have been doing and had lazily let slide too much:
SLOWING DOWN ENOUGH TO TRULY "DO WHAT I WAS DOING"-BE IN THE PRESENT WITHOUT ENTERTAINING PAST NEGATIVE THOUGHTS OR WORRYING ABOUT THE FUTURE, FORGIVING ALL WHO HAD (IN MY OPINION) "WRONGED ME," REFUSING TO WELCOME "THE BLUES" (DEPRESSION)OR ANXIETY AND, ABOVE ALL, USE THE TECHNIQUES THAT I KNEW WERE EFFECTIVE (HAVING HEALTHIER FOOD AND DRINK, EXERCISE, RELATING TO UPBEAT PEOPLE, DOING AS MUCH GOOD FOR OTHERS AS I COULD, LIVING EACH DAY WITH DELIBERATELY CHOSEN POSITIVITY, PRAYING, MEDITATING, VISUALIZING, READING UPLIFTING LITERATURE FROM WISE WOMEN AND MEN AND NURTURING MY PLANTS, PETS, CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN AS WELL AS MYSELF. EXPRESSING APPRECIATION FOR WHATEVER KINDNESS WAS GIVEN TO ME, ETC.
is it a coincidence or what, that they are delaying diagnosing cancer and other things, more and more, and at the same time legalizing suicide in more and more states?