1Yr. since diagnosed

It was a year today that I had that phone call informing me that I had Invasive Ductal Carcinoma.I am still mystified that I took it so calmly. I guess it was because it didn't seem real to me but for whatever reason the calmness helped me through the next few months of decision making.  The reality really hit when I woke up from the mastectomy.

Strangely, I am more distressed today as I realize that being told I was cancer free in Sept. after the chemo was finished, doesn't mean I will necessarily stay cancer free.  I just heard that Elizabeth Edwards who had breast cancer in 2004, just found our that it has returned.  I am feeling really depressed.  I guess I had better have myself a good cry and then go to the gym and work my way out of this mood.