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Why Me? Why not?

By Leslie Monday, August 27, 2007

 

 

Baring it all in front of techs, male and female, I started thinking that I should get paid for this. After all, topless dancers in clubs got paid for being bare chested! The treatment actually took less time than it took me to drive to the clinic on the days of my treatments.

 

Oh, I have a breast that is gradually losing its burned thickened skin appearance, and softening up after 10 months from my last radiation treatment. Flash forward.. It's been over a year and I am cancer free.

 

My last mammogram came back abnormal but what showed on the film was scar tissue. That initial fear was just instantaneous, because I know, no matter what, I can get through it again...and again, if I have to.

 

I get to go in twice a year and get my boobs flattened to almost pancake level, but I'm alive. My hair came in curly this time as it was stick straight before. It's short where it was long before. But in time, it will grow, as I have, through this process. I thought cancer would define me. But I decided no.

 

 

I am not just a female with breasts. I'm a strong individual with a brain and creativity in the art of painting on ceramic tiles. With or without cancer, with or without breasts, that would still be who I am. I'm lucky.

 

Chemo exacerbated some aches and pains I'd had before but it's oh so nice to be here and be allowed to feel. I did it. You can too. Oh, and a word of advice...stick with your treatments. I wimped out. But looking back, I could have endured the other treatments I chose to fore-go. I had the most important support group I could have had through it all. I had, ME, MYSELF and I. And I conquered something that I never thought I could. Oh, the Power of One, we all have inside of us.

8/28/07 6:09pm

Hello, Leslie. Thanks for writing. Welcome to the community.

 

Your story is great and your determination even greater. The fact that you "are who you are" - cancer or not - is priceless insight for others who battle breast cancer. You are quite an inspiration.

 

Wishing you good luck in staying "cancer free." You are an incredibly strong woman. I hope to read more from you again. Feel free to share with us often.

 

Best,

Maria

 

Maria Gifford

Community Moderator

MyBreastCancerNetwork.com

 

PJ Hamel, Health Guide
9/ 2/07 12:29am
Youmust be incredibly strong, Leslie, to have goine through all that alone. I love your "Me, myself, and I" support group! I hope things are going well for you now - are you in Oklahoma? You know what, though? I'm also very glad you told others at the end not to "wimp out" with chemo. Personally, I think it's important to go all the way through it, if that's what the doctor recommends. Suffer now so that you reduce the risk of dying later? Sounds good to me. With stage 1, your risk is probably very low anyway; but for others at a higher stage - if you're supposed to do chemo, ladies, go for the whole treatment, if you possibly can... - PJH

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By Leslie— Last Modified: 10/26/11, First Published: 08/27/07