Pity Party (just a short one!!) - Side effect woes.

Hi Everybody,

It has been a bit of a tough couple of months.

First of all the tamoxifin was a no-go...it made me very sick...running to the bathroom...nausea, diarrhea...kind of sick...so they switched me to arimadex...now I am having major joint pain, headaches...and did I mention the blistery rashes I sometimes get, or the tiredness I always feel...the neuropathy is still bad...I am a little more on the "weepy side" than normal...and, OMG the hot flashes!! 

I own my own business with my husband...this cancer thing put a real strain on the business.  It is getting better since I finished chemo but it takes a real push and effort to keep things up and going.  Plus my mother just passed away unexpectedly.  That was really hard.  Not only dealing with the grief (which I'm still doing) but also taking care of everything from memorial services, packing up and cleaning out her house, preparing it for sale, dealing with the realtor, etc, etc.

So when I read all the fine print on the side effects of the medicines and then some of the things you are supposed to do to deal with them it cracks me up.

1. Avoid stress (yeah, right..)
2. Depression (is it the medicine...or maybe I really do just feel sad)
3. Tiredness (is it the medicine...or the fact that I'm not sleeping well...so I really am just tired).
4. Headache (is it the medicine...or.....

You get the picture!!!

Still have three more months of Herceptin...I'll need to figure out what options I have for Tamoxifin or Arimidex...can't do this for 5 years!!!

I'd put off  the reconstruction when my mom took ill...now its trying to find the time to be out of action with the business....not sure when that can be.

 Whine, whine, whine, whine....it's not me...the medicine is making me whine...yea, that's it....it's all the medicines fault....it can't just be...life...nope, it's the medicine.  I always used to be an energetic up person....it's the medicine...

Okay, I feel better....thanks for letting me vent!!!

And hey, on a lighter note....it's time to bring out the pink wig again!!!!!  There is a Breast Cancer Awareness event taking place at the end of the month....the pink wig has been requested!!!  

There have been some great things happening lately, too....my hair is coming back all curly...it is hilarious...I can't do a thing with it...but, hey, its hair...and I do so love my eye lashes...I missed my eye lashes....!!!  I didn't miss having to shave my legs...but that's okay, too!  I remember being so scared that it wouldn't grow back...so, I'm thrilled to shave my legs...I even tweezed my eyebrows today!!!!  Hooray!!!!  Did I mention that my hair is a salt and pepper brown...I'm thinking about coloring it to get rid of the gray...but I heard the "chemo hair" is a little sensitive and it could come out purple or Blue or something...so I'm not going to risk it yet...bad enough that I feel like Shirley Temple...I don't think I could handle looking like Cookie Monster!