Shock: Grief Stages and Cancer

A cancer diagnosis is so shocking if you were feeling fine that cancer advocates, social workers and navigators are all good options to have for the woman when she hears "you have breast cancer".

This is so true! Even though I expected it, I still wasn't able to remember what the doctor said after telling me, yes, it is cancer. All I know is I wish I had had someone with me when I heard the news so they could tell me what was said after that.

I had my biopsy on sept 10, so I was home nursing my little cut and watching all the Memorial shows about 9/11 that day, when my doctor called, I muted the TV, and she said I had tested positive for breast cancer.

Then on TV, the Twin Towers were on fire and crumbling down. I felt so awful. I thought, "geez, what a bad omen, 9/11...this can't be good..."

Then I had to call my Hubby who was in Delaware on business for two weeks. I had to tell him on the phone and I knew he would want to just be home with me...but without his work, we don't have insurance...so he stuck it out.

When he got home a week later, and i saw in his eyes...that's when it really hit me. The shock...but now I have a bookend to my story. Nov. 6, they took out my cancer, and I am a very lucky girl. I know it isn't over. But I am relieved that I made a good choice with the lumpectomy.

ON a road to recovery, and hope, and loving more than ever before.