I am shocked at how good my chest looks after reconstruction.  PS put in small implants.  I had two tumors in my left breast and one affected lymph node.  I decided to have bi-lateral masectomy even though I had no signs on cancer in my right breast.  

I hade 16 rounds of chemo prior to surgery to shrink tumors.  My general surgeon and Oncologist are pleased with my response to chemo-tumors shrunk to 1.8 and 1.7 cm and the cancer in the affected lymph node was almost gone. 

I didn't appreciate that surgery is so tough.  I feel like a big baby, because I have always had a high threshhold for pain.  My last last two babies were delivered before I could have pain meds.  The drains were more painful than I thought.  I have felt so helpless and frustrated by the pain.  I tried to prepare before surgery by doing strength building and stretching exercises.  I feel some relief from the prescription meds and ice packs.  I went a certified Oncology massage therapist last week and felt wonderful for a couple of days.  Just can't afford it again til next month.  I thought the pain and tightness would be declining, but I guess I was not realistic.  I am worn out by early evening and feel like I am 82yrs old instead of 42!  LOL   I might be referred to Physical Therapy this week by my PS.  Just wanted to vent and share.  I am going to try meditation at my local Cancer Support center to help cope with the pain and frustration.