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By chelle2008 Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I'm new and very glad to find a place with so much information and help.

I'm 55 and sick and tired. I have had chronic pain for quite awhile but it has escalated over the last three or four years. I finally had to quit work this year and am now on SSDI. Since then I see hardly anyone or go anywhere. I am hurting so bad I can't get out of bed in the morning. Had two neck surgeries. My back, leg & foot hurt so bad. I had a great doctor but he left the area this year and his replacement came in on my first visit and said he will not treat pain with narcotics. He stated 99% of the people who take narcotics for pain turn into addicts and it ruins their lives. I had never heard such a thing. I know there are addicts but come on. 99% of all patients are addicts already or going to be. So now I need a new doctor but live in a very rural area and don't know how to find one.

I get very tired of all of this. At my age I wonder if it is all worth it.

Thanks for listening everyone.

chelle2008

10/15/08 5:59am

      It is worth it hang in there! I know how frustratin glife is when we are in constant pain. Then when we find a doctor that seems as if he is willing to help us, he moves away or stops excepting our insurence. You will find someone somewhere to help you. The Lord will provide. I hope that I can be an encouragement to you. If you need to talk or something feel free to write me. Good luck!

                                                 Wishes of good health,

                                                           Morgan

10/15/08 3:52pm

Thank you!! It helps knowing there are people who understand. I start to feel sorry for myself and then realize how blessed I really am. I know there are others who are in worse pain or facing a terminal illness. I know when I focus on others instead of myself it helps.

 

It just seems some days I look forward to the promises of God when he says we shall have new bodies. That one I really look forward to.

 

I appreciate your kind words. They help more than you know.

Chelle

10/15/08 9:04pm

Chelle,

     I too look forward to that day when we get new bodies. At first, I was upset at God "for allowing" me to become ill. Now I have decided to use my issues to be a blessing to other. As you and probably everyone else, I have those days when I have a pitty party for me until I realize how much that I have been blessed. He could take everything away and He would still be a truly loving and completely fair God. Anyway, He would not be that harsh. I try to keep the mind set... "though He slay me, yet will I serve Him". I'm glad that I can find friends that know the Lord. Now days most all of my friends are adults b/c the teens of this age are just plain wacky. I believe that the Lord wants me to become a missionary. Sometimes I wonder if God is allowing me to go through this to help someone on the mission field later in life. I'm lucky... I go to the Christian school that is ran by my church. My principal has been very generous to me. He has allowed me to change my schedule to work around all of my health issues. And though no one at school really treats me as I feel that I should be treated, I have been blessed. If I were

10/15/08 9:04pm

Chelle,

     I too look forward to that day when we get new bodies. At first, I was upset at God "for allowing" me to become ill. Now I have decided to use my issues to be a blessing to other. As you and probably everyone else, I have those days when I have a pitty party for me until I realize how much that I have been blessed. He could take everything away and He would still be a truly loving and completely fair God. Anyway, He would not be that harsh. I try to keep the mind set... "though He slay me, yet will I serve Him". I'm glad that I can find friends that know the Lord. Now days most all of my friends are adults b/c the teens of this age are just plain wacky. I believe that the Lord wants me to become a missionary. Sometimes I wonder if God is allowing me to go through this to help someone on the mission field later in life. I'm lucky... I go to the Christian school that is ran by my church. My principal has been very generous to me. He has allowed me to change my schedule to work around all of my health issues. And though no one at school really treats me as I feel that I should be treated, I have been blessed. If I were to

10/15/08 9:04pm

Chelle,

     I too look forward to that day when we get new bodies. At first, I was upset at God "for allowing" me to become ill. Now I have decided to use my issues to be a blessing to other. As you and probably everyone else, I have those days when I have a pitty party for me until I realize how much that I have been blessed. He could take everything away and He would still be a truly loving and completely fair God. Anyway, He would not be that harsh. I try to keep the mind set... "though He slay me, yet will I serve Him". I'm glad that I can find friends that know the Lord. Now days most all of my friends are adults b/c the teens of this age are just plain wacky. I believe that the Lord wants me to become a missionary. Sometimes I wonder if God is allowing me to go through this to help someone on the mission field later in life. I'm lucky... I go to the Christian school that is ran by my church. My principal has been very generous to me. He has allowed me to change my schedule to work around all of my health issues. And though no one at school really treats me as I feel that I should be treated, I have been blessed. If I were to attend

10/15/08 9:06pm

to attend public schooling I would not be treated in such a manner. Anyway, I think that the page has a glitch. Sorry it sent my message to you in pieces. Hope to talk soon! : )

                                                                                       Love & Prayers,

                                                                                            Morgan

10/15/08 7:36pm

I can relate to your frustration - I was in the hospital when I was first diagnosed, and was prescribed Lyrica.  It provided some relief, bot when I went to my doctor for a follow=up, he took me off it and instead prescribed Neuronton, which barely touches it.  However, the hardest part for me is getting my family and friends to understand - after all, we don't LOOK sick.

At any rate, we both need new doctors. . .

 

God Bless,

Denise

10/16/08 4:04pm

I hope you find a good doctor. I miss my doctor so very much. Not just because he tried to keep my pain at a minimum but because he was truly a nice person. He really did care. I could tell him anything. He would get into trouble for taking so much time with his patients. The nurses were always knocking on the door. He would always say they over schedule me. He was one of a kind. I do wish you luck and will be thinking of you.

Thank you Morgan. You are truly a blessing to the people here and the people around you. Your family shold be very proud of you. You have made me feel better already.

I pray the Lord continues to use you.

Chelle

10/19/08 11:02pm

Hello Chelle

 

It's a plesure to meet you and Welcome to the Chronic Pain Connection.  We too are very happy that you've found us.

Your very welcome to join in anywhere you'd like and I hope to see you around here more.

 

We have a suppport group over in the forum area and I'd like to invite you to stop on by and see if it would be something your interested in.  Everyone is welcome to join us, so if your someone else reading this message and I've not had a chance to invite you personally too, Everyone is welcome to join us.

All you have to do, is click on connect the blue button at the top of the page and it will give you a drop down list.  Then you click on Chronic Pain Forums and when you get to the forum area, you just register in that area, with a similiar name & password, the scroll down to the bottem of the chronic Pain forums to the off topic area and click on that and then click on the October Daily Grind.

We are just a group of pain people who stop in daily or as often as we are able and we visit with one another, talk about our lives in pain and give Love, support and some advice to each other.  If you think you'd enjoy this type of support group, then come on over and we would really love to get to know you better.

 

I'm really sorry about the loss of your wonderful doctor and I agree, I'd like to know where your new doctor got his statistics.  He thinks your just unknowledgable about pain and pain mgt.  Thats why he says such outrages things about pain meds, is he really has not a clue about them himself.  I would suggest you find a new doctor and I know it's hard, but I believe it would be well worth your while.  I hope you find someone soon dear.

 

Take Care and hope to see you soon

Betty

10/20/08 8:28pm

Thank you. I'll check out the forum. There is so much good information here. What a great resource. I did find a doctor about 80 miles from where I live on the doctor list but when I called they weren't taking new patients.

 

Many pain clinics want a referral from your primary doctor. Have no idea if this new doctor will do that for me. He made me feel like a dumb kid and I'm 55. As if someone my age could even get high.Laughing I'm lucky to walk. Here he is telling me my medication will ruin my life when it actually allowed me to live a little. I sure felt intimidated but I kept thinking he has to be joking. He wasn't.

 

I will go to the forum in the a.m.

 

Thanks again!

chelle

11/ 5/08 6:04pm

Hello again Chelle

 

I hope your doing well and have possibly found a doc to treat your pain.  Let me know how your doing, if you get time and feel well enough.

I don't know what I would do without my meds.  I like being able to get out of bed and walking is also a nice function to keep.

 

If doctors only lived one day in our pain filled bodies they would do their research on current studies and start listening to their patients needs better.

 

Take Care and Hope to see you around

Betty

Anonymous
Seth
12/11/08 9:54pm

Pain is terrible sometimes exercise like walking,swimming as been suggested to me

I make myself go out and visit friends and I go to Bible study each week

I had to quit work to its been a year now

we have to hang in there and make a way to get up in the morning

I am 52

I will say prayers for you

Anonymous
Brandi
9/ 7/09 10:38am

Hi Chelle-

 

I started having chronic lower back pain when I was 32. Now I'm 43. I had back surgery, it helped some but I,m still in pain everyday. I'm lucky, I do have a doctor, and I'm on medication, but the pills still don't take care of most of the pain.  I'm afraid to ask for more medication- I feel as if my doctor is judging me.  Pain has changed my whole life- I don't remember what my life was like!!!  I'm tired.  I really don't do anything anymore. No one seems to understand- not even my husband.  People seem to think I'm anti-social- lazy- ect.  They don't seem to get that I'm in pain everyday!!!!!  I hope you get a good doctor and get some relief. There are some people like me that understand the pain you feel. Laughing

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By chelle2008— Last Modified: 12/20/10, First Published: 10/14/08