hi,cindi,first of all,thank u 4 writin 2 me so much,and really sori u havin such a hard time urself,cps really is such a struggle,its really hard 2 speak 2 ppl,family,m8,s and even docs,as they arent goin thro this nitemare themsels,thank god there not,so chattin 2 ppl like u,helps no end,it was g8 2 hear from u but not the struggle ur going thro as well.my life used 2 be,drink,drugs n mny other problems n,ireland brung with it,but after many years of trying 2 get clean,and my life sorted,i did,then bang,i took ill,ended in hosp,docs said i was drying,cancer,chrissos of liver,massive infections in my body,but 6 months in hosp i was gettin home,amazing turn of events really,since then have got married,a son, n life was g8,apart from this pain i thought was part of my liver n other damage i caused my body and thought things wud go thro time,but no,after lots of scans,tests n docs after docs,i was told it was cps,i was gutted,2 say the least,read up on it on web on this site n seen ppl spoke 2 each other here about it n here i am,my doc has since said he sentin me 2 england 2 a clinic 2 try 2 help with how 2 live with this nitemare of living with pain and hopefullness i feel,dont think my doc has me on right meds,but do think,lyrica n fentynal pats do help,so spk,ing 2 ppl like u can only help,hope i havent went on 2 much here,but just letting u know what has happened so far, n wont have 2 say it all again,thank god,ur thinking,ha,ha,well,cindi,i hope maybe we can help support each other,thro are hardships,and become good friends,bless u,n hope things can get better 4 u,best wishes n thoughts,stephen robinson