Hi - as you see I am writing another post here , as I praised the forums for being a simple place to discus our feelings about pain , etc ...
I am going to do my sharing here once more ...
In as far as pain, I understand they use a morphine pump , which is implanted .. do they not have pills to the same effect ?
I am seeing my PCP this mroning and going to get info on this , as my body is ready .. my mind is ready, and of course my soul ..
I wonder why people feel the need to put down others who suffer from deep pain .. and not talking about a doctors dismisal or so-called friends , but people who don't know you ..
I was never good at grieving, and actaully had to go to therapy to learn how .. also releasing of anger .. I was a passive/agressive, but now I speak my mind when I want as politely as I can and enjoy a good old fashion "pity-party" , as i have heard others call it .. when i do this on some forums , i get accused of being "stupid" .. why ?
On the forums here i was finding happiness and not really holding any pity parties , but if we wanted to we could .. dicussing niceties and being polite seem to be "wrong" to alot of people who say "you are your pain" , what does that really mean ?
So discussing how we feel physically on a forum for some is okay , and when a person expresses that you get accused of being "self-absorbed" in your pain you want to just strike back with a biting comment , as to "how dare you make this a thread about the weather, what your day is like and general discussions , including the so called "pity-party" ..
Well, today i realized that no matter how hard you try to stick to the topics that were the inspiration of the thread , then someone comes along and says "no" get some lively debating / discussions .. what if we don't want to ? .. the obvious answer is then you don't repond .. or you do not participate .. i usually choose the latter ..
I express my dismay about seeing the way a forum of happiness turn to a political or one sided forum .. that is why i don't participate ..
Then you get those who speak the words " pity-party" like it were a curse , which of course if the whole thread was looked at , they would see it isn't a pity party, nor is it a one sided or "dictatorship" ..
I am tired of being angry and , but when i express my anger as politely as i can , again my statements get twisted and i am outta there ...
I promised myself that i will not be a part of another forum .. i don't believe my postings were "dictoral" in anyway, and it hurts to be accused of this ..
So my conclusion is no more forums .. you go in believing you are safe from the people who direct their anger in a different way than you, maybe at politics and religion or "pre-destiny" .. not what i signed up for ..
