hi - over the last few years , i am learning how to live with my MS and FMS .. at times not so well, and at times frustration has taken over ..
i am happy to say that the one thing i have been yearning for is about to become a reality .. as i am setting plans to move "home" to florida ...
i know at times i have sounded whiney, or ungrateful .. but once i have learned to accept what cards i was dealt , i was able to express my desires more clearly ...
so with the help now of some family, i am taking one day at a time , and following instructions as to prepare and plan this move ..
transitioning from being in charge, to actually asking and getting and following the advise i am being given .. no more fighting it, it is what it is ...
so i am actually going day by day, step by step and transitioning into being helped .. and i am grateful , it is about time ...
so i get assigned "jobs" , and when i do them and accomplish them , i stop , as i was told .. and i don't feel so overwhelmed ..
family is helping and will be aiding in every aspect of my life now , which was a transition i fought for too long , and have finally accepted ..
i am happy, though fatigued , and have accomplished each day a job , and am pleased .. no more overwhelming myself by trying to be in charge .. others now are doing that .. and it really is nice to have the help ..
so as my plans get set, my burden seems lighter , and it is one step , one day at a time .. and by the end of july , i will be "home" ..
this and my ms shareposts , and my cp friends have played an important role in helping me see that there is nothing wrong with saying , i need the aid .. so i will be adding as i go .. and will still be here and in the ms site forever ...
my refuse and safe havens .. and now that i have completed my jobs for this day .. i am mentally fatigued , but am feeling positive that everything will work out .. as i now listen and accept others advice .. agserra
