I do not know where to begin. I can barely types this message cause my fingers on my left hand hurts so bad. I go to the doctor tomorrow cause my finger pain is just new two weeks ago. I have been dealing with pain and swelling in my elbow for over four years now. They have me on neurotin cause I have neuropathy also in the arm, on celebrax for swelling and the pain, am on Ryzolt ER for the pain, and a pain patch for my elbow. I am not suicidal but I am not myself right now. I am so tired and that is not me. Some times I just want to give up on the meds, but I know that if I am in pain now I couldn't imagine what it would be w/out it. I have cried almost every day the past two weeks cause my fingers hurt so bad. I try to talk to my husband but he said I don't know what to say or what I can do for you. I just really need to talk someone with the same situation.