Recently I was having 12+ seizures in a day~ as an added bonus my driving service decided I am too much of a liability- so they won't take me to see my new, well trusted doctor or his referals. (they won't take me to this one city) - definitely the storm before another rainbow*
So I'm sharing this little poem as an added way of communicating just how fragmented, how degrading and out of sync with life one feels having them. Besides, it makes for soMe fun* If you're going to suffer such humiliation, you might as well find a way to lighten the burden of isolation they bring.

The photo, borrowed from fliker is a good image to remind me, that it's up to me to carry my rainbow with me- wherever I go- the true rainbow, the hope- lives inside- and no one can take that away!!

SHESURE IS A LIABILITY

It shakes me rag doll lifeless
Squeezing till I gag and spit-
Writhing with my rival
camouflaged within.

Imminent oblivion
envelops my fatigueand lay

I sheathed in twilight
silent, numb reprieve.

Time floats by my half-lid eye
In a semi-conscious fugue
Through flickering gray and blur
I reach a claw-like hand to you-

Frothing monochromatic speech
Contorted wooden legs
Crippled lame and twisted
Disfigured I thus beg-

I strive to tell you plainly
How much it means to me
Just to have you near me
When I'm suffering~

Merciless, the saga then reappears
like a trilogy of horrors
a second, third and fourth time
I am flailing on the floor

With newborn twists and oddities
Doctors throw up their hands
Except the Great Physician
* In whose hands I am *

Keep looking for the rainbow,
and meanwhile,
DanCE in the Rain
zoe

ps. the link option isn't available to me right now, but I'd like to invite you all to my effort at blogging- JUST for fuN. http://zoe-somewhereovertherainbow.blogspot.com/ and my Carepage where my journey over the rainbow and on to wellness is shared in detail. http://www.carepages.com/carepages/prismed