the loneliness of chronic pain and addiction is a very lonely place to live!
i feel so alone in this battle that is all-comsuming. i am afraid,i am lonely and this seems to have become a batlle that i am facing within!my pain consumes my every waking moment and my tolerance to narcotics is at a lethal level. like i previously posted im not even sure how much of this is chronic pain or my addiction to the pain pills? once i switched from vicoden to oxycodone i was litterally shocked at how fast my tolerance to them went off the charts! so now i've started snorting the oxcys cuz it hits my bloodstream immediatly! they say though that the dangers of snorting them or chewing them makes the time release go away. they also say that when you have compromised lung conditions like copd your chances go up by 75% for respitory failure. one would think that stopping would be vital but it seems like its making no difference to me? so i am continuing to play this russion rulette with my life??????? i am contemplating medical detox and going to a chronic pain-chemically dependance facility,this whole concept scares me to as i don't think i can tolerate my chronic pain without meds! so confused