I find myself alone in my pain do you?

I have found since my cervical injury, that took place at work, slowly I lost all my friends along the way.  I worked as a Medical Assistant, for a Large HMO, and they ended up fighting me and won.  So my cervical injury was found to have happened "anywhere but at work."  Suprising what big time attorneys an HMO can afford.  I was a dedicated worker for years. All the departments.  I was trained to work everywhere and I did.

I had so many friends then.  People I trained. People I helped, people I covered for, people I went to lunch with. My friends.

After I could no longer work due to a herniated disc, two levels, requiring surgery, friends became fewer.  Doctors' I worked with "forgot" they had seen me for my injury...friends stop calling.....no more "invites" to lunch, soon even Christmas cards stop.  Finally it was Rose who?  Life became sad, lonley, and full of pain.  My only support was my husband, but he too seen I was becoming a sad and diffrent person..

Today I am still in pain, but I can "handle" it with my MS Contin, and other medications. I suffer not only with multi levels of disc problems that never got "fixed." I have fibromyligia, chronic fatigue, diabeties with horrible nerve pain.  I will stop there....Has anyone else lost so much at no fault of their own?  Today I am diffrent, and live a diffrent life. Only one friend from my past is in my future.  My husband still loves me for who I am.  As do my four out of five children. My sister does not talk to me.  My parents are not alive.  Pain suffers are not "whimps." We suffer from more than pain.  We suffer loss. Not only of our friends and love ones, but of who we were.  I am glad I know the Lord, without Him, I would be lost.