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Hey D/F,I have had you on my mind lately.I was telling my husband about this site.We don't get to spend too much time together because he is a Builder.In fact he has own website that anyone can look at.He builds for people who arlready have  their own lot.He went in with his father who built most of Arlington in Jax Fl. in the early 50's.In fact I have come to the point and see what houses my father in  law built.I have a wonderful interest in houses.I have a friend who is an architect and he gave me a book on Frank Lloyd Wright.It is amazing to see that he even built a house on top of a waterfall with the water running through out the house.I am amazed that people can do this.He also made china patterns and furniture and if you are from the west he was the first to use that pattern in stained glass windows.You know the one.It looks south western so you would reccongnize it.OHHHI dont know where that came from.But I do enjoy beautiful furniture and homes too.I am lucky that we still have this duplex.If we had built that dream house I wanted we would probably lost it as I became too disabled to work for the last 11 years.

Funny that your life never turns out the way you would have imagined.Bul like you Morgan,I have a great and abiding faith that God knows more than I do.I may never know the reason for my pain.It may never be known until I am dead and several generations pass.But if you read the Bible doesn't God sometimes let generations of people die off before he reveals his plan.So I put my faith in Him.And I hope that I will have said to me at the end of my time.'Well done good and faithful servant" That would be enough for me.I hope  today you are doing ok.I am so tired of laying in bed I went outside to just pull a few weeds.Well if you lean over it puts a lot of pressure on your sinuses and it didn't take long for me ot head back to the bed.Bob is sitting in the kitchen cooking stew for whoever shows up.He loves it and I taught him a lot many years ago.But my grand children are astounded sometimes when they say papa,this is so good.And he will say I didn't cook it.Who did came the reply.Your grand mother cooked it.And the funny thing about my youngest 3 grands in that the oldest are 10,so ofcourse they never watched me cook.And they say grandma,do you know how to cook.I laugh and said well how do you think I raised 3 daughters.I was considered one of the best cooks in our family but alas.I just cant stan in one place for hours cooking.So Bob does the kitchen stuff and I do the laundry stuff and the yard.Morgan I know you have had some set backs.And I know how disappointing that is.Just ask for help.Some one will be there for you I promise.I am going to spend some time with my husband so have a good day darlin and remember that you have another mother........Jo

Momma Jo,

          I'm glad to hear that you had a good weekend. As for me ... well lets just say that it was less than good. I had a really bed night last night. Mom insisted that I go to the ER, but I just insisted that I stay home and go to bed. The ER doctors would have just sent me home with a huge bill and my parents already have enough medical bills on their hands. Mom has that appointment w/  my principal tomorrow. I hope that we can work something out. Well anyway I need to go and study for my upcomming english test. Talk soon! : )

                                                                              Love & prayers,

                                                                                   Morgan

Dear daughter friend,I am so sorry that you are going through this all at your young age.I can telll you without hesitationt that your parents would take this load from you if they could.I am with you on the e.r..Why wait in a cold uncomfortable waiting room on a bed with no pillows just to be told they can't find anything wrong.Now if you broke a bone or something I guess you would have to have it xrayed.But then when they say let me give you something for pain I have said in the past I have more pain meds at home than I am sure you are going to write on you script pad.Well I was correted about that by my primary.She said never use you maintenance rx's for surgeries or anything that doesn't have to do with pain mang.Otherwise they will ask you how come you are running through your medicine so much this month.So even someone as old as me can make the wrong call.But I am glad I found your letter.It kept saying you sent me one but I looked everywhere and could not find it.I am sorry to say I have to go.I have a bad neck pain.It is going to take weeks if not longer for me to be able to clamp those teeth onto the implants.All because a doctor would not take a culture as I asked for and begged for.for a year and a half.They found staph and yeast infection Morgan, in my implant I was telling the doctor that I had infection in.I will tell you the story later.But I hope you feel better honey.Take it easy and please ask for help.I love ya little bit.You stay in touch....Momma Jo

Momma Jo,

         I'm so glad that you finally found an answer. It's amazing how doctors can overlook simple things, but they are just paople too. They just went to school to help those in need not to be healers. I go to the doctor on Tuesday. Mom called and made an earlier appointment. She though that it may be wise to check in with him now instead of later this month b/c the pain is beginning to become unbarable. I wish you a speedy recovery! : ). I will stay in touch... will you please do the same! I need to go, I just got home from work and I feel like I could pass out. Talk soon!

                                                                      Love & prayers,

                                                                          Morgan

 I will be asking the Lord to help your body heal quickly! : )

Hey girl,I know you are exhausted.And I thank you for trying to keep checking in on me.It is a warm feeling I have not had since childhood.You feel like my own somehow.I am still haveing to check around when there is a notice that I have a reply and cannot find it I get a little frustrated.But there are people who are just starting and I want to be as nice as you are for telling them they are here.And you always introduce yourself.You are wise beyond your years.What is your momma and daddy's first names if you don't mind telling me.It would help me visualize them.I know you have the picture. But my eyes are getting old and it is hard to see the little picture.Thanks for your prayers.I keep thinking at night tomorrow I am going to go to Wal Mart and just look around.And when I wake up it is like I had the flu or something.I have no idea what is going on.But then again none of us do.So sweetie you just get your rest.I hope it all turns out well for your schooling to be at home.You can do your work when you are feeling better.And that doesn't always fall between school hours.Sometimes I feel better late at night.Do you have that happen to you ever? It seems,even though I have sleep apnea that I really dont want to sleep.Because I know when I wake up I will feel badly.It is a vicious circle.Well did you figure out what d/f means? I will give you a hint.To my dear friends its s/f.Good puzzle for your mind to percolate on.Have a good dream night.Momma Jo

Morgan we haven't touched base lately.How are things going in  your life.Did you have the xray yet your momma wanted you to have.I don't want to go into what I am going through.The maternal side of me reared its ugly head and remembered I have not heard from my computer daughter Morgan.I want you to feel like you can talk to me anytime.I think of you at night when I am not able to sleep and wonder if you are sleeping.I know that it will take a lot of support to help you.I think I read once where it takes 5 people to help a person in chronic pain.So we do not wear one person out.We have to remember they have their own problems too.They might not be as painful as ours but they do have obligations.This site has helped me to stop dumping it all on one or two people.Gotta run,Husband is home and I love him so much.Momma Jo