I am very scared. I have had chronic pain (now, especially at night) since last March. They still have not figured out what it is.  I have another post here about my pain (not sure how to get to the post; I'm new here).  Am on anti-depressant Liibyrd(?), just started two weeks ago.  I am trying to get out a bit, be with people and exercise and watch my diet. Still very scared, depressed. Money is getting very bad.  Have had thoughts of suicide, but have grandchildren and try to reach out when I feel very bad.  I think my family is getting bored with having to deal with me and upset. I hate that.  I have thought of volunteering.  Have tried it a few times in my life.  Never worked out for very long...I am sooo scared, I can't explain it...