will there be life after fibromyalsia

i'm 51 and disabled with fibromyalsia and some other small problems too.i'm in pain most every single day.when i do feel good i of course try to catch up on the household chores i missed over the last week or sometimes two.but when i do i suffer for it for at least a week!but it's pretty bad when showering hurts for a week after,so i sometimes think i would be better off not being here anymore or that yahweh made a horrible mistake putting me here,so would i benifit from leaving this life? now truth be known i'm a chicken and i don't think i would try that again but i'm just so exhausted and tired of hurting and i'm ready for it all to go away.