there no deals with your kind

each day you make me guess what at it's worse

arthritis in knees - they say I'm too young for

or leg pain that no one can diagnoses

neck pain I've had for 20 yrs now, we've made our peace

live with it

and you Rick - how did you do it?

cancer pain, pain in bone and of the blood

it seeped into your every being

I hated seeing you die there

nurses refusing pain meds that doctor's had ordered

at first you knew, later you didn't I gave up my pain meds

before I could even whisper it

before my brain could allow me to say a part me knew you were dying

I refused to let you be in pain, my love

later when the nurses knew they turned kind

you had every med that was needed, turncoats

yet you always comforted me when I was in pain

My sweet love, I try Rick to battle the pain

don't have your courage and without you here

without here the battle is rougher