Shame of Pain

I was 34 years old when I shamefully had to take my place on the disabled list of life. I no longer recognized the person in the mirror. Who is this person, why can I not over come this pain, this inabilty to be the mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, the "ME" I had always been. I shamed myself for not being able to overcome and take care of those who needed me.

I had time plenty of it, I picked up a paint brush for the first time. I had to express my own shame, get it out without anyone seeing my defeat in myself and that is what you see here, "Shame of Pain" I call it that because once i started I realized it was not me, not my shame on canvas, but my pain! My pain that started at age 8, I am now in 45th year and still in pain, but this is part of my path, part of me without shame.

I hope that my art was uploaded correctly and you can see me and my pain. If it did not upload please let me know.

thank you, miss lisa