Early Morning

By Kat Updike Saturday, September 06, 2008

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MORNING

I WAKE EARLY THIS MORNING AND TRY TO GO BACK TO SLEEP. BUT I ACHE SO MUCH I CAN NO LONGER LAY IN THE BED. IT IS A RELIEF WHEN THE DOG BEGS TO GO OUTSIDE, ANY REASON TO GET UP IS WELCOME.

I AM AT A LOSS, MY HANDS TINGLE BUT IT IS MY BACK AND HIP THAT IS KILLING ME. IT SEEMS EVERYDAY I WAKE UP TO THIS PAIN. I CAN NOT TELL IF THE PAIN IS FROM ARTHRITIS OF ONE OF MY MANY FALLS, OF MAYBE JUST ANOTHER FUN EFFECT OF MY FIBROMYALGIA.

THE STRUGGLE WITH MY MIND AND BODY IS EXHAUSTING AND I MUST FIGHT TO KEEP THE DEPRESSION IN CHECK. SO THE PAIN PILLS COME OUT SO I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH ANOTHER DAY.

LIFE HAS BECOME STRENUOUS AT BEST AND IT IS OF LITTLE CONSOLATION THAT I WON THE BATTLE FOR TODAY. TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY AND ONLY TIME WILL TELL WHAT IS TO COME.

KAT UPDIKE

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Thurle Burns

9/10/08 3:26pm

Well done on being able to express yourself so fully. I am in chronic pain daily. Feel like I have no life and push myself to do things. My body aches, my lower back, my neck and shoulders just recently my arms and elbows. Some days are worse than others. Just normal day to day living is becoming difficult. I am constantly tired and try not to let anyone know ow my body feels, some days I just weep our of pure frustration. I feel lost and alone and am afraid to be seen as a whiner, so rather not express how my pain makes me feel.I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and battle to accept it. Thurle Burns South Africa

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