I'm terribly sorry for your loss. Why does saying that always seem so inadequite. It is so hard to stay positive when the whole world seems against you. When I have moments like this, and they seem to happen more often, I remember something a freind once said to me. I hope it helps.

I was complaining about something in my life, I can't even remember what it was, and it was definitely before much of my pain. I asked, to noone in general, "Why me?, What have I done to deserve this?" He looked me straight in the eye and said, " Why not you? What makes you think that you are so special, that you don't have to go through what the rest of us do?" Now, years later, facing constant pain, Drs that can't agree on what I have, What to do, Or what might help, I try to remember that there is a reason for this. That I'm here to accomplish something special. It may be trying a new drug, or maybe just getting access to a building, or even to help someone else. I don't know. But it makes me hopefull that tomorrow will bring something so special that it makes it worth getting through today.

Tami.