Holly, so sorry to hear about your suffering, but your spirit is good. Like you, I learned to press on, and most days am successful at it. Like you, I learned to cry to myself and to God. I take that time as my "prayer time" and go off into a room I set up in my house for my computer room and prayer room. I put on good uplifting music and talk to God about it all. We certainly need to remember our fellow sufferers in our prayers.  I saw a lady in an opthalmologist clinic today who captured my heart. She was telling her husband how to go on and that she had had a good life. It always reminds me that I am not having it nearly as bad as some others. I know you will make it, and yes, I could not agree more that when you have a flare, forget it! Everything goes out the window. All your plans are put on hold. I create kidney stones, and have had lithotripsy and stone removal 5 times. But, I watched my sister die from diabetes complications in September, I was diagnosed in February, so I am really trying to fight the good fight now. Thanks for your response, Holly. I hope you keep soldiering on and your bad days are fewer. Keep the faith!