Today is one of those days..

By Vickie Kunkel Friday, January 25, 2008

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Today is one of those days that rocks me to my core. Fibromyalgia is acting up terribly adn my brain just doesn't want to work as it should. So very tired, I feel like sleeping all day. Forced myself to get up and take my husband to work, but couldn't manage much else.

My spine feels worse then it has in weeks, unable to sit much or bend over at all. My spirits are down. I'm having one of those days that I feel like I'm never going to pull out of all this and I hate the feeling and myself for feeling this way.

Self pity is not acceptable, it only makes the situation worse. I know this and yet here I am in the bowls of self pity, feeling like my life is over and I'm just waiting for God to take me away.

I truly hate myself for feeling like this. I know I will pull out of it, I always do, yet these days are so very difficult.

Vickie

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Chuck Murray

1/26/08 12:05am

Hi Vickie,

i'm sorry to here you're having such a rough time.

Although I don't have fibro my pain has been high for a

few days now. There's been days when I have been able

to do much but, lay on the heating pad and take meds.

i had and er trip and another mri and nothing had really

changed, makes me feel like beating my head against the

wall sometimes. But, I think I may have turned the corner,

it never goes away but, it gets to where we can handle it sometimes. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for ya!

Keep the faith-we're pullin for ya.

Chuck

Betty Boop Too

1/26/08 5:10pm

Vickie

I'm sorry for not checking back yesterday. I must of not gotten the email for your post till now.

Sounds like one of those rotten flares. I'm so sorry Cry

I think nearly everyone here has those kinds of days, I've had a rough winter and been fighting this rediculous pain & fatigue for weeks. I feel trapped in this recliner, yet thankful to be able to lay here and talk with others.

If your fatigue is so drained you, you should probably go lay down for the day. I know because I've tried to push on through it and have only made it worse and it seems to make the flare last longer too.

I'll be around here if you want to talk to my, just click on my name and you'll go to my homepage. You can leave me a private message there if you want to talk somemore.

Take Care of your self and get your rest, you need it to fight the flare off.

Betty

Betty Boop Too

1/28/08 6:45pm

Hello Vickie

I just thought I'd check back and see if you've been well enough to post anything, I guess You've got a doosie of a flare going on, and I really hope you get some relief soon. I know & understand how devastating and out of control a lengthly flare can be. I hope it will subside soon, so your able to get around better and get back to some normal life's activities and your family things.

I'm sorry for your hard time and hope to see you again soon

Take Care of yourself and get well

Betty

Vickie

1/28/08 8:53pm

Or at least I think I live. Embarassed Unfortunately, I not only had a flare with fibromyalgia, but also had a lupus attack, which left me wide open for infection, as it really tears up my immune system. Now, I'm battling strep throat along with the rest. Thankfully, I believe my fibro flare is ebbing off, but am still waiting for the lupus attack to ease off. Been dealing with a rather high fever for over a week now and it just doesn't want to let go, this is due to the lupus as is the strange muscle attacks also. At least I felt well enough to touch down on the computer today. We had a rotten snow storm with low temps, doesn't help when it's so cold in our home due to the weather issues. This to shall pass and all will be back to somewhat normal, or as normal as they can be right now.

Hope all is well for you. Any snow up your way? I have a sister and brother in Spokane, they say they have knee deep snow. Too cold for me these days.

Take Care

Vickie

Betty Boop Too

1/29/08 5:26am

Vickie

Good to hear from you. I've been thinking about you and wondering how your making out. Sounds like misery alright!

I don't have Lupus, but I have a friend near by with Lupus and Fibro. She has really worked hard and finally after 8 or 9 years, she's got it all undercontrol.

The Snow Storm. Yes, we'redeep out there, trees & shrubs weighted down, breaking limbs, etc.

Another storm rolled in tonight, and the weather guy said & showed alot of moisture coming in too. It's been showery all day and then at 10:15pm, it began coming down hard and is still coming down. Every foot print from dogs, cats & husband are now all gone. From what it looked like on the weather, I'm pretty sure we're really going to get dumped on tonight. My enjoyment of the snow, is looking out the window, I just don't dare go out and slip or fall down. I have enough trouble walking with out another fall. We have wood heat and it really helps with my pain in the winter. I can hardly handle getting chilled, my body freezes up and when my muscles tighten like that, the pain just goes nuts. So we keep the house pretty warm.

It's good to hear from you, take care of your self, get some rest and I hope all your fm, fibro, strept throat symtoms subside and give you a break.

Gentle Hugs

Betty

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